I Promise

The last time I made a promise,

It was to please you and not myself.

I felt like I was so deep in

I felt like I could do anything

I thought that you understood me

A thought's a grave thing to waste.

 

I've leant a lot in my life's journey.

I've done a lot to cause my demise

I've lost a lot that I couldn't account for

Because instead of loving me I was promising lies.

 

A lie doesn't have to be mapped out

And said in the fanciest of words

Sometimes you live a lie and you just don't know

When you believe that the worst can work.

 

I promised love that would last forever

I promised a bond that can never be broken

I promised we'll never become strangers

I guess I promised lies.

 

Tons of regrets and heartaches past

That can never be undone

And as I look back, am glad it's over

Cause pain revealed you weren't the one.

 

I promise myself I'll do better

I'll live strengthening and uplifting me

I promise I'll never leave out my savior

In planning all that I can be.

 

Taking the steps to heal my wounds

Cleans my soul and free my mind,

Making positive decisions for my future

I promise to not take my eyes off the prize!

 

I promise to break free of all the soul-ties

Loose the chains and bury my failures

I promise I'll live to make me better;

I'm living life with no regrets.

 

I promise to forgive, to let go

To rebuild, repair, restore, reshape

But I'll never take Him out my thoughts

And believe your promises again.

 

Never allowing you to hurt me

Cause that's my fault

And if I hurt you, that's my fault too

I'm loving me, I promise

 

I Promise myself all the goodness 

I left for you to promise me. 

I'm loving me, I promise

I promise, I'll love me.

 

Yours - Pinky Promise,

Tiff.

PS: I've actually stopped with all the promises... I'm taking action!
My life's truly not about to be wasted...
I'm happy where I am... safely wrapped in my saviour's arms.
I Love You God.